I talked to Tak...

...he said he doesn't know if he can come back as my boyfriend...

*sigh*...

I've missed him this week a lot

and thought I could work things out myself

I'm going to get through this
no matter what

and I've been working through things to try to see if I can be with him again

and I've been telling everyone how much I want to work things out with him again

but that I just needed time to fix myself out of this ugly stage I'm in
I still do
but I already knew I wanted to work stuff out

damn insecurity...

I just have to be sure

he's found his answer now

I'll wait.

because either way

I gained some gnosis (knowledge) through him

and I know he'll still be in my life

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i'll draw you closer with one hand
and push you away with the other

which will you choose?