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2007-01-13 - 11:45 a.m. Sometimes I wish I never fell in love so hard I wish I never found something good in him I wish he never lied to me I wish I can forget what today was I wish I can forget all the good times But it's not that hard because what's he's done to me now is slowly erasing all those good times Sometimes life seems so hopeless because I don't have that person anymore and I don't feel loved like that. Then I tell myself, "Bitch, you're the one who evaluated your life through someone elses. You know better." ANd I know I miss that security of someone always loving me, not the actual person. Sometimes I think I'm too ugly or fat to get someone new. But I know I've been uglier and fatter in the past and I got a lot of people just fine. Because I have a beautiful but damaged inside. And that's just fine because I'm healing it instead of letting it cut me down more. :) I just wish I didn't give my whole self to someone. I'm still trying to pick myself up.
I'm going to wait for the one who says forever and means forever. Who knows me inside and out and loves me for who I am and accepts me for my faults. For the one that will need me and love me forever. And means "forever".
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