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2007-03-03 - 12:01 a.m. Do you ever feel like no matter how hard you try, no matter how hard you try to change, it's all hopeless and you'll always be that same person that you tried so desperately to escape from? I feel that way a lot right now. But I know it's up to me to stop it. It stops now.
I used to feel that way a lot. Maybe I should feel that way right now. I'm beyond numb right now. I feel nothing. Absolute nothing. At least when you're numb, you know the pain is still there, hiding. But me? I feel void.
I've been feeling that way a lot these past two days. Does it say 'use me' somewhere on me? or do people just see it inside of me? Fuck. And why do they see it? I've been working so hard to change inside and it's been working but lately I've been falling hard maybe the lowest I've ever been maybe I've run out of all the things I said I'd never do except drugs (which I'll still never do) Fuck. Leave me, now, you're better off alone. Save yourself. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* oh, look, you're like a VCR |