I cut my nails so thin and ragged used to be so strong but now as frail as my hold I think I'm ready to throw away my friends who left me behind and didn't look back and not look back I don't know where my soul mate is but I know where he lives and it's like he's right next to me I let him touch me because he won't kiss me I can close my eyes and it's not there You're not here but you want me to be there biting on tea bags and burning my mouth on honey stomach swollen and eyes sunken in you leave me hollow, you left me empty not supposed to take from me but if I watch you leave me dry it'll be alright my dye-stained hands and bleach-dyed hair my crooked hands and twisted head my outrage, my passion my unanswered phone calls missed and placed, returned and dismissed when you're here, will I know how to act? when you're here, will you be real again? I place your body in my head but I cannot place your movements disappear but I want you near reappear and I'll want you gone injustice to justice swift sword to sweep the feet of foes I'll keep you away I'll make you stay in this house of paper I made my heart aches and I'll heal it away burn in the fire and forge it new with your name, my new heart for two