DISCLAIMER LIVEJOURNAL |
2005-12-21 - 12:31 a.m. To get away from the yelling. It didn't come true. Screams get louder when you want it to be quiet. Someone revealed to me he isn't who I thought he was. I should have seen it comming. Saw someone I loathe. He still wants me. I want him...to forget me and leave me here alone I'm not living up to an unmotivated man's hopes. I hope to leave this place soon. My favorite vodka was on sale today. I couldn't help myself. One of my dearest friends is a complete loser. Breathing deeply is a chore for me. My sickness consumes me on a daily basis. I am nothing without my pills I am nothing with my pills. I am my pills. I've become an array of pills and liquor. The rooms a mess but I know where everything is. My babe is gone, all gone, and he's not comming back. I wish I was in the car with him every day I know he's not with me. I've ruined something great.... ...again... Sometimes, the sweetest friends are the ones that are the farthest away. |