2007-03-15 - 6:05 p.m.
It's amazing how much changed in 4 weeks and changed again in 4 hours From bliss to sadness And now I feel all alone but I know I'm not I have him still he says we shouldn't see eachother that much anymore part of me wants to run to him and another part of me knows better We talked a little bit after work recapping things I feel so confused I feel like I don't know exactly what's going on and I hate this feeling so much especially because just a day ago we were talking about Saturday how we'll see eachother how happy we'll be to be near eachother and now he doesn't want to see me right now hurts so much but understandibly I know where he's comming from so maybe this is what needs to happen for right now he said he doesn't like waiting because when he's waited before for someone they were stolen but stolen things are only that way because they're left out to be and want to be taken I don't want to be taken by anyone but him but I don't want to be taken right now I'm not ready but i know we'll find eachother again because I do love him and he loves me it's just the waiting that kills him and his displeasure kills me and I'm dying inside wanting to live dying to love he's waiting for me hopefully I'll be worth his wait and I'll make him happy just like he's made me happy for the first time in a very long time *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* there's battlescars on my face and my arms but you still kiss me anyway
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